Turns out I was always the one he never deserved.

Cheating bastard.

I wish I could be the person he deserves.

You’re not good enough.

You’re not eating enough, but you’re fat.

Why don’t you ever stand up for yourself? Stop being such a bitch.

Why can’t you find a job? Really, that’s what you do for a living?

You’re just not good enough for us.

It’s good to know my family loves me just the way I am and that they make me feel like I belong.

I get to keep him!!!

I’m quickly running out of reasons to keep going.

I’m losing friends.

I’m losing family.

I’m losing a place to live.

I’m losing my health.

I’m even losing the love of my life in a matter of weeks.

It’s a bit too much for me to take. I’m running out of reasons to get out of bed in the morning or even open my eyes for that matter.

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grandmasam:

Moms in the wild

Pure cuteness

Back to square one.

I thought that moving to my gran’s would be a step int he right direction. I’d be able to work and save money.

Now, I can’t move there. Where am I going you ask? I have no fucking clue. At this point, a local homeless shelter seems to be my only option.

Fuck.

Pillow Talk by Joanna Montgomery is a project aiming to connect long distance lovers. Each person has a pillow for their bed and a chest sensor which they wear to sleep at night. The chest sensor wirelessly communicates with the other person’s pillow; when one person goes to bed, their lover’s pillow begins to glow softly to indicate their presence. Placing your head on the pillow allows you to hear the real-time heartbeat of your loved one.  The result is an intimate interaction between two lovers, regardless of the distance between them. I must have this. Pillow Talk by Joanna Montgomery is a project aiming to connect long distance lovers. Each person has a pillow for their bed and a chest sensor which they wear to sleep at night. The chest sensor wirelessly communicates with the other person’s pillow; when one person goes to bed, their lover’s pillow begins to glow softly to indicate their presence. Placing your head on the pillow allows you to hear the real-time heartbeat of your loved one.  The result is an intimate interaction between two lovers, regardless of the distance between them. I must have this.

Pillow Talk by Joanna Montgomery is a project aiming to connect long distance lovers. Each person has a pillow for their bed and a chest sensor which they wear to sleep at night. The chest sensor wirelessly communicates with the other person’s pillow; when one person goes to bed, their lover’s pillow begins to glow softly to indicate their presence. Placing your head on the pillow allows you to hear the real-time heartbeat of your loved one.

 The result is an intimate interaction between two lovers, regardless of the distance between them.

I must have this.

"The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer, because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt."

Thomas Merton (via julie911) (via quote-book)

I believe this because I live it every day.

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The epicness that is Batman’s manscaping. Bask in it’s glory.

!!

It’s not me trying to cushion the blow like I originally thought. It’s me being too selfish to let him go despite my mess of a life starting to drag him down, so I’m subconsiously trying to give him a reason to be okay with leaving.

Fuck, I’m messed up.

Finally, someone understands! This is the reason I’m terrified of swimming alone. Yes, even in a 4.5 foot deep pool I can see the bottom of. Did I forget to mention I’m crazy? Finally, someone understands! This is the reason I’m terrified of swimming alone. Yes, even in a 4.5 foot deep pool I can see the bottom of. Did I forget to mention I’m crazy?

Finally, someone understands! This is the reason I’m terrified of swimming alone. Yes, even in a 4.5 foot deep pool I can see the bottom of. Did I forget to mention I’m crazy?

Sometimes I forget to love you like I should.

Most everything is okay now. I’m still a little anxiety ridden, but spending time with good people last night helped me bring my mood back up and now I’m in a place to be able to tell myself to shut the fuck up.

I really like this one. I really like this one.

I really like this one.

My new best friend.

Whether he knows it or not.

This guy is awesome.